Apologies are in order for a 2 month wait, but my laziness can't be to blame this time. I've been in China since I left Australia in late June, and not surprisingly, the naivete of the great Middle Kingdom managed to anger me some more with its brainwashing censorship of websites like Facebook and this one.
China cut me with a double edged sword. There was too much of everything. Too much people. Too many cars and traffic. Too much trash. Too much pollution. A lot of food. A lot of excitement. A lot of hope. But it was disheartening to see how people can be desperate enough to move up the social ladder at the cost of a humane level of respect for anything that doesn't aid in self-promotion or the fulfillment of new desires. I've always believed all people are innocent in their life purposes and deep down have a gene of sincerity. I saw this in the humbling hospitality of Chinese folks to guests, family, and friends, but the amiableness failed to extend to strangers. Out in the streets, flooded by the raw society, I mostly felt a primitive rudeness guided by cynical suspicions and stares of envy. An ignorance clouds over China as long as the faceless dictate from above, choosing to decide what is reality and what is not. The Chinese people are no exception to blind faith, materialism, and the American rat race. In fact, they practice it all much more religiously. Although they might be running faster for a bigger prize, the crash in the end is only harder to avoid, and much more devastating to witness.
But I'm finally back in the US of A. I can't say I'm excited to be back. The last year has lifted my spirits, expelled my stress, and inserted a human sense of freedom. I literally had 'no worries'. I tasted the feeling of actually living on an instinctual level, void of the vices that societal pressures place on the human mind. I don't want to lose what I've grown to adapt within the last year. I already feel it slipping away. But I will try my best. Cheers.
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